We just have only one week to finish our first semester second year term. Next semester will be a new beginning for me. Everything will change but I hope I can still manage to set my life free despite that I am not with _ _ _ anymore.

Isn't it a mistake to fall in love? In a "shonen ai" way? I want to make a blog in my site but I can't, my friends are visiting it and it is a big rumor if they know I am in love with my friend. A guy friend.

I do have a girlfriend but why I do set also spaces for guys? I'm restless. I'm tired. What will I do. Do I have to stop myself thinking about him? How?

Sometimes I give my full focus to my girlfriend and somehow I manage to set myself free to the stresses I have. Now I know, am I a BI?

But even though I am like that, I will just have a control in myself and just focus on some things.

Is it my fault that he is so sweet enough that I can feel something with him that I can't find in girlfriend. Everytime he needs my help, I am always willing to help him without thinking any conditions.

I will gonna miss the times we are riding in his motor after a night long tutoral. While riding with him having a nice trip around the city at night. 11:30 pm until 2 am. That is a blast.

I wish I can pass this challenge I am encountering. I can't have a relationship with him. I can't. We are the same. Just friends. FRIENDS.

I want to shout his name and tell that he is such a stupid person. I want to tell him that, for him to know whom he is dealing with, because why me? Why me?

But I will wait on what will happen on monday cause that is the last day I will see him.


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Thaks to you...